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8 December 2011

Kian - an update

So any readers who actually read my blog and care about it at all (maybe the one of you that there is) will remember that a year ago, or actually 13 months ago I posted to tell all that my nephew had been brought into the world. 


Obviously much has changed with said nephew, he has gone from being a baby who can only sleep, cry and poop to turning into this scamp who likes to pull anything he can get his hands on (including my hair which is so long at the moment) and make extremely loud noises. He also still poops. 




That is the little boy himself there looking as mischievous as ever. He is almost at the stage of walking and talking which is obviously very exciting. However I have feeling once he does start talking he won't shut up ever. Not that I'm complaining... yet. 

6 December 2011

Writing

For as long as I can possibly remember I have wanted to write, to be considered and known as a writer. I believe that one day it will happen, one day I will have published work instead of just meaningless blogs on the internet but in the meantime I find it difficult to live this hum-drum, day-to-day life of... nothing. 

Every day that goes by and I write nothing is a day wasted and yet I sit and I stare at this blank document and I wonder to myself if said blank document will ever turn into anything meaningful? I have so many ideas, but when I write them down I lose focus and concentration and give up, I try and I try to actually make something last but then, I just can't. 

And it occurs to me that this is not even half the battle, what if I do write something good, maybe even something great but then it is rejected? What then? I know plenty of people who want to be writers, who want to have a book, and who have ideas, and connections, how to stand out from the crowd? What would make me better than them?

My passion? I feel I lack, I live for writing, I feel as though it is what I was born to do and I am not happier than when I am writing, however I don't think that comes across easily via text.

Maybe I will never accomplish my dreams, I know I need to keep trying, I do. But sometimes it is so very difficult.